cliffhangers.

so now is the time of year where all your favorite tv shows are leaving you hanging on the edge of your seat with their suspenseful finales and cliffhangers. right? you only get to see so much of a story line, you get hooked and lured into a wonderfully crafted tale and then BAM. to be continued. you sit there....with mouth wide opened in awe maybe...can't believe that, you say. i have to wait till next season to see what happens....to pick up where this story left off....a bit of sadness maybe you will feel, to be leaving your favorite characters for a while...a little discouraged or bummed because you don't want to have to wait that long....and then also maybe a little excited. because you have something to look forward to.....

cheesy analogy? yes.

but this is what i decided i feel like most days since death wrapped itself around my broken heart two years ago....

i got to see the beginning of a most wonderful story line. the creation of a beautiful baby girl growing within me. i fell in love with the character of sydney of grace, the sweet girl in my story. i watched for months as she grew on the screen. i grew so accustomed to the idea of her being a part of my life in prime time within a few months with her anticipated arrival....and then BAM. we lost her. she was gone....my story was interrupted with the LONGEST commercial break ever...literally the most suspenseful cliffhanger ever...well, ok. Christ's death on the cross was the most breathtaking cliffhanger. BUT joyfully it only lasted three days before that storyline was redeemed...but for me, our daughter's death was a huge painful cliffhanger that took my breath away. one that left me with mouth wide open in awe?

BUT the most beautiful thing about my interrupted storyline is that there is a happy ending...i do have to wait and wait. in many more seasons than i wish for. but the happy ending is Heaven. and i will get to witness the culmination of this beautiful story that God began crafting long ago..and i will get to see "how it ends" and how it is redeemed.....

if i look at my time waiting for her and for Heaven with Jesus in that kind of light...yes, i am bummed because of the waiting...but man, am i excited too. because i KNOW i have something, EVERYthing actually, to look forward to!

i have a new outlook on cliffhangers!!