Tuesday, September 30, 2008

10 months today

sydney would be 10 months today had we not had to let her go here on earth. i received her coupons in the mail, today in fact, from gerber that tell me that she should well be into solid foods by now, how sweet of them. i miss her so much. but it brings my heart some peace to know that she is in the Joy and Presence of sweet Jesus and knows no pain or sadness. i found the sweetest little pillow yesterday that i wanted to buy for her, for her big girl room....it made me long to see her as a big girl running the halls of this house, with pigtails, screaming after her big brother....

oh, syd. even 10 months later, your absence is so tangible and so present in our home and in our lives....

i love you, sweet daughter...love, momma

3 comments:

AW said...

Lyss, thinking of you tonight.

Happy Birthday sweet Sydney. We know the celebration up there for you is probably pretty amazing!

boltefamily said...

Alyssa,

Just wanted you to know I am thinking of you. It is so tough remembering what could have been. I am praying for you!

Love,
Kristy

April said...

Dear Alyssa, I found your blog from a friend of a friend's blog. Your title immediately drew my attention. Our son, Evan Andrew, was born still on July 29, 2008, at 36 weeks. I am looking forward to reading more of your story. Thank you for sharing Sydney with us. Maybe she is playing with our Evan in Heaven. God Bless You, April Lieder