october 15th

today, october 15th, is the National Day of Remembrance for pregnancy and infant loss. this includes all babies who have died because of miscarriage, stillbirth, SIDS, or any other infant death. and the day is for not just mothers and fathers, but for grandparents and siblings, all relatives and friends touched by this loss.

a sweet new friend whom i've met along this rocky road this year has written a beautiful entry on her blog, here, about this special day and what it means to be a momma who is missing a part of her heart....

this place for me to write and get my thoughts out has been one of the biggest blessings in our loss. the freedom to rant and rave my heart's dark moments and a place to voice my little victories has proved very healing, but the true comfort has come from hearing from others in the process....each of you who have followed the last year of my life here have been God's hands and feet for me time and time again....encouraging me, sharing your own stories of grief and loss, telling me about your sweet angels who join our precious sydney grace in heaven...getting to know you and hear from you constantly in this forum has been a lighthouse at moments for me in the dark....and in the talking and sharing and being vulnerable together we have begun the healing part together and that is the truly amazing part...that God could use a simple ole' blog, full of dumb stories and ugly heart moments to bring people, from all walks of life, from all over the globe...to one place. a place of compassion. a place of sharing life with one another and holding each other up on the hard days. celebrating small victories on the better days....woman is strong, God made her that way....but when women come together...and hold one another up, pray and intercede for one another and champion our sisters in the biggest fight of our life...well- it just brings God so much glory and honor and we are blessed by it. i have been blessed by it. that blessing, when spread and shared, creates a domino effect of strength, empathy-not feeling alone and empowerment and hope!

so, today..on a day where we remind others to remember our angels...i tell you, to those who have lost so much, that i celebrate your precious little Joy that awaits you in heaven with a huge grin and a big hug, i empathize with your heartache and i challenge you to live a life that honors your sweet child that is gone from you. i am truly sorry, and that means more now than ever to say that because i have been on the receiving end of the "i'm sorry"....i am deeply sorry for your loss and i pray that in the deepest part of your souls, that the flicker of light, the light of your child's life will always burn brightly with pride and honor and grace and compassion and love.

everyone around the globe in invited on this day of remembrance to light a candle at 7pm in all time zones and leave the candle lit for at least one hour so that there would be a continuous wave of light going...to remember all, every single little one, who has touched our lives and left us far too early....




i saw on another mother's site today, where she had people write in, anonymously or not, and share their child's name and birthday and heaven day, almost like a memorial wall on her blog...i hope it is ok to copy that idea here because i would love to hear from any of you as well and know the names of your precious ones so that i may say their names along with our sydney grace tonight as i light a candle in her honor and yours and remember our babies together...



my love and deepest respect to those of you who light a candle tonight in your child's name and walk this painful path, like my family has, and fight everyday to be strong...He will NOT let go of us, He WON'T, hang on. Strength comes from the strength Giver. Hope comes from the One whom we Hope in. Joy awaits us, as do our little ones who sit at His feet at this very moment.....