hope.

well, i was waiting for further confirmation from more testing to share with your our amazing news, but ian pointed out today that we were still getting "sorry for your loss" comments on our blog, so i suppose i should share with you all what is going on.

we were told last friday, after results from bloodwork, that we were miscarrying and that my hcg levels were going down. we grieved all weekend long, we made peace with what God had chosen for us and we were ready to keep trusting God on this crazy road we are on. yet nothing happened over the weekend and i was told to restest on monday.

however, on monday more bloodwork was taken and it proved that not only did my numbers not keep going down, they instead went up by 800 and then 48 hours later they doubled....

my doctors are kinda stumped right now. there are many possibilities for the numbers to have happened this way. everything from testing too early and a lab error to a rare situation with a twin that dies or the presence of a tubal or ectopic pregnancy.

as of today, my levels are doing fine and will be checked again today at 1pm and we have an ultrasound scheduled for monday and we will know more then.

we have no idea what God is up to but we are balancing between hope and excitement and being guarded and cautious because we know anything can happen and we are promised nothing....

so, that is where we are at. for today, we are still pregnant and expecting and praying for a miracle and for God to continue His plans for our family as He sees fit. we have no idea what tomorrow brings but we hold out for hope. no matter what. we hope.

we will keep you updated on this rollercoaster that is our life right now. and we really appreciate your prayers for our hearts and minds as we wait it out.....