exposed

i did it. it took me two months, but today, just now...i FINALLY took off the plastic covering my new lampshades...i know, i know- "alyssa, it is has been two months since you said you were going to do it and even longer since you bought them, what took so long?" you might say to me...procrastination and fear got the best of me. i have joked with ian some nights about how "funny but sad" it was that those tacky things were still on our lamps, STILL, two months after my big aha moment that i had....each night, i went to bed looking at the shades and knew i needed to remove them once and for all, but i put it off...yet, i secretly exhaled inside each time with that lazy thought because i knew that at least they were still staying clean...and no one really sees them, right? because they are in our bedroom....but we do.

things have transpired over the last week and weekend that have caused me to raise my hands at Life and People and scream...things have happened that have reminded me that the only choice i have for a healthy and honest and God-honoring life is that i must take off the layer over the lamp, my heart....and i wish i had scissors for some other hearts i see that need the pruning as well, but for now...my two little lampshades in our room are all clean and bright now...glistening and reflecting white light...radiating light and looking more beautiful than ever, doing exactly what they are supposed to do, looking like normal and finally serving the purpose they were created for....my pristine shades are exposed and now vulnerable to dust and cat hair and little three year old hands...but just as kirsten said in my original post...they do reflect the "light" so much better now that the cover is off....

i think you might know who you are, but i just wanted to say...."i did it...you're next!" i am waiting....and so is He.