this is sydney's place. i haven't figured out what to do with so many things of hers...we weren't sure where to "put" her and didn't know how one was to go about "putting" one's child that is in an urn into a place....but there is something very comforting for US to have her near and to have a special place of memory and acknowledgment in our home for her. so for now, this is her place. this is her space that we have dedicated to her.
my dad and i found an angel, at a garden nursery of all places, on easter weekend that is made out of jewels and scraps and buttons, very vintage feeling....she has a pretty little glass button that simply says, GRACE....i showed him and he said, "you have to have that, for your girl..." i love that. that we still talk about her like that, like she is a part of our family ALWAYS and not just a thing of the past...i love that people close to me know that i want to find ways to include her into everything, into my everyday life at times....by making her an easter basket, by setting a little place setting at the easter lunch table, by lighting a candle for her during our meal...i love that others that love me give me the freedom to love my daughter from afar...because it is the only way i can reach her...and it makes me feel closer to her...it makes me feel like she will never be forgotten and always treasured in our lives...and in our hearts...and in our home.
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Okay so I came across your blog page from Ashley Snipes page. It was sort of an accident and well I just want you to know that I am truely inspired by you and your strength. I'm finding myself on the internet at night after my two year old goes to bed and rushing to see what encouraging words you have written today or over the past few days. So I honestly want to thank you for your honesty and bluntness with your grieving. And whether you feel it or know it you are a strong person and you love your little princess so much. Thank you for touching my life and making me realize to stop and enjoy the small moments in life and not to let them pass you by. I do believe that God is going to use this blog that you're writing for something amazing someday (ie. an inspirational memoir, or something). Thank you!
I am so glad you have such a great family. The first time I came across a comment posted by your mom, she was pleading for help and prayers for you, and I could feel her desperation and her anguish through her words. She was seeking help for you, anything to ease your pain and give you some light.
I love the place that you made for Sydney, and these pictures of some of her things.
You're in my prayers.
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