funeral planning for dummies.

so, i have a funeral to plan. yes- we are finally getting it together to have a memorial service for our sydney. it has taken 4 months for many reasons...too many to explain here and i honestly don't have the energy for explaining these days...but we are planning for a service, hopefully may 10th, but we are in the process of checking with the schedule at church...there is so much to do..and i don't even know where to begin....i crawl into bed with her picture on my nightstand and just stare at her and don't want to go there, to the place where i have think of funeral songs, funeral flowers....i just look at her and want her back. i want her here. i want to plan walks to the park instead of what song i want my best friend amy to sing at my daughter's funeral. please pray for me...this past week has been harder than most...i think the idea was one thing, but the planning now and making it real is messing with my head and heart...i am so numb. things that normally would have me bawling, leave me staring and expressionless...that is not me, if you know me, that is soooo not me. not sure where this sleepy-numb state is coming from or why or how long it will last...but i know i have to pull it together to make a beautiful service for our beautiful little girl....i haven't the faintest idea on where to begin....