can i tell you how much i am hating writing these thank you notes right now? not to sound ungrateful to those i wish to thank for their thoughtful gestures towards us for sydney's memorial, but i literally cannot get my hand to paper to do it. my hand shakes and my handwriting looks like my 3yr olds and i fall apart. i don't want to be thanking people for flowers and donations, i want to be thanking them for soft pink blankets and onesies and dresses.....i am oh so grateful for the wonderful outpouring of love and support for those who did minister to us and encourage us with the flowers and donations...it is just hard to get past the fact that i have to write these notes for the purpose in which they stand for..sympathy not celebration..i sit there and can't write and am drawn back here to the keyboard where my fingers can keep up with my thoughts and i am here again trying to dump my mind free of what seems to crowd it.....
there is redemption for so many things on this earth if you choose Christ and let His love work through your issues...redemption in a failed marriage, a troubled friendship, in battling an addiction, poor life choices and family ties and so on....if you allow Christ to redeem these things with His perfect love (since ours is not) He will renew and revive and redeem what was broken and make it new...He can do this, i have seen it with my own eyes....what breaks my heart over and over is that the redeeming relationship that we crave so deeply to have with our daughter will take a lifetime to see, not until we are at Home with her....there is redemption, Praise God for that. I have to remind myself that the victory that day on the cross has led to the victory for the future, for my eternity...the hard part is the waiting....the dash in between the two spans of time....there is separation right now between her and us, there is a brokenness and a long span of time in which we have to wait for that to be made right. Please help me, God, to Praise you in that you will make it right...that you will redeem this brokenness of a lifetime to be made perfect for an eternity....
"the person who lives by their fears will not find freedom in my love.... to the degree that those fears have a place in your life, you neither believe I am good nor know deep in your heart that i love you..." (The Shack)
Friday, May 23, 2008
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3 comments:
Don't write those thank you's now. You don't need to.
If it makes you feel any better, I never mailed one of the hundreds of thank you letters that I had printed. It's too hard. The people who did it for the right reasons won't care and they're the ones you really want to thank anyway. Throw Emily Post out the window. :)
It makes me smile to see your beautiful girl's face here on your page!
Scratch our name off of your thank you list, Alyssa. Sincerely. We already know of your gracious nature. Besides, those things can be a pain in the yee-haw under the happiest of circumstances.
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