remind me....because it is dark.

remind me, O Lord...why this constant hell is my life.
remind me, O Lord why our daughter's life was cut short.
remind me, O Lord why i am putting together a memorial instead of a birthday party.
remind me, O Lord why i must sit in tears on the floor screaming at you, but i don't feel you near.
remind me, O Lord why you are silent sometimes...
remind me, O Lord why you won't bring her back to us...
remind me, O Lord why grandparents are coming out to say goodbye to sydney tomorrow instead of taking her to the zoo.
remind me, O Lord why my grief overwhelms me and consumes me.
remind me, O Lord why our three year old is lonely for his baby sister and must be alone.
remind me, O Lord why my husband can't lift his little girl in the air and twirl her around.
remind me, O Lord why i must see him ache for his baby girl so damn much everyday.
remind me, O Lord why this mother's day i will only have one child with me, the other one only in ink on my foot.

remind me, O Lord that you are good, that you are still there and that you ARE victorious in this battle already.

remind me, O Lord, as we say goodbye to our angel, that sydney had a purpose here.

remind me, O Lord that she is at peace, she is Home and she is Loved.

remind me, O Lord that this darkness won't last forever, remind me that there will be light, it is too dark now to remember.