waiting for strength?

i recently found this blog site,especiallyheather.com,that follows the story of a remarkable woman, you must read her story. this post/prayer, that is placed below, that her husband emailed her was hard for me to read at first but i keep going back to it over and over and am trying to let it fall from my lips and find a place in my heart.... if only i can come through my storm with this kind of strength, this beauty, this courage and this MUCH faith. we are two days away from Syd's original due date and while we are no longer "expecting" or waiting to meet our sweet girl, i feel as if i am expecting supernatural mercy and comfort this week to flood my heart....i may not be delivering our angel this week, but i am begging to be delivered from this constant ache that has become my familiar friend...i am forcing myself to meditate on this prayer below in hopes that God will do something with my weary soul in the midst of it all....

DEAR GOD:
I want to thank You for what you have already done.

I am not going to wait until I see results or receive rewards; I am thanking you right now.

I am not going to wait until I feel better or things look better; I am thanking you right now.

I am not going to wait until people say they are sorry or until they stop talking about me; I am thanking you right now.

I am not going to wait until the pain in my body disappears; I am thanking you right now.

I am not going to wait until my financial situation improves; I am going to thank you right now.

I am not going to wait until the children are asleep and the house is quiet; I am going to thank you right now.

I am not going to wait until I get promoted at work or until I get the job; I am going to thank you right now.

I am not going to wait until I understand every experience in my life that has caused me pain or grief; I am thanking you right now.

I am not going to wait until the journey gets easier or the challenges are removed; I am thanking you right now.

I am thanking you because I am alive.

I am thanking you because I made it through the day’s difficulties.

I am thanking you because I have walked around the obstacles.

I am thanking you because I have the ability and the opportunity to do more and do better.

I’m thanking YOU, God…You haven’t given up on me